today i deleted my facebook and twitter.
i decided that it was time i grow into who i wanted to be away from others.
its not that i dont want to talk to anyone but i dont want the extra that comes with social networks.
i was struggling with the decision of whether or not to delete my current blog and start brand new.
its 7am and i have not been to sleep since last night but i decided to take a trip down memory lane.
i read all 527 posts. i was able to see myself over the last 3 years.
it was great.
i saw when i fell in love, struggled with events from the past, got hurt, forced myself out of love, found that i could not stop loving, & to a period where i didnt feel anything.
i reflected on the things i loved so much about guyana as a child.
i saw some of the memories i would have forgotten if i deleted my blog.
i loved seeing myself and remembering the good and bad.
so with that being said, this is my last post on shannyford.
i am leaving shannyford behind. i carried her thru high school and 3 years of college.
i ready for the person i am growing to. i find that she is very unique. she is shades of amber.
its really not that i cant save myself. i really just dont know how. sometimes i really want to give up and live in a box.
i love you and nobody else.
who do i run to when my heart is broken
and my back is up against the wall.